I've been feeling kind of frustrated and beleaguered recently, for a variety of reasons, most notably the rejection of my application for a job that would have been impressive, well-suited to my skills, politically relevant, probably at least relatively well-paying, and located in the same city as some of my friends. As with anything you get rejected from, you can't help but wonder where you went wrong. Was I too nervous on the phone? Was my rationale on why I was interested in progressive ideology lacking? Did I do bad on the proofreading test? Was I so sleep-deprived and hung over that I was actually speaking gibberish?
The logical part of my brain tells me that there were probably just a lot more candidates with more impressive resumes than me, but that's never much consolation to the emotional part. It's just tough when you get these bursts of hope and you think "My search could be over! I could have a job in a few short days!" and then you wait and wait and wait and eventually realize that you're not any closer to success than you ever were.
I'm not completely hopeless now (and ideally I won't be even if I do end up at square one again). I still have one more exciting iron in the fire. But it's the hopeful waiting that kills you. It's tough to keep sending off applications when you're clinging to the hope that you'll rise to the top of whatever pool of sad jobless schmucks you happen to be swimming in at the moment.
So I continue to clean and organize in what could probably be analyzed as an attempt to assert a measure of control over my life. In a similar vein, I decided to try to start a comedy blog called Laughtracker. I'm not sure what exactly its content is going to entail, but it's all designed and functional. I did this instead of applying to more jobs. But I could argue (and will continue to, especially to my parents) that any and all design work strengthens my resume. So it counts!
In happy news, Inception is coming out this weekend! And my birthday is in a week and a half! And Mad Men is starting up again on my birthday! Almost all the major events in my life are media-related!
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